Careful of your Thoughts!

I have always had a flair for the dramatic and those of you who know me are not really shocked by this revelation you are reading on the page. However, sometimes my thoughts get a little carried away and head down a wrong and sometimes destructive path. I believe that I have overcome quite a bit in this area, thanks to a handful of books from Shad Helmstetter including What to Say When You Talk to Yourself and John Maxwell's Thinking for A Change. But once again, last week, it was proof that I am human and do sway off the path of productive change and slide down the slope of horrible thoughts.
Poor little Adam fell down more last week than he had since he was learning to walk. Open road, he'd fall, run into doors, and of course the standard scrapes and bruises he obtains from running down our semi-steep driveway. Well, at first it was not a big deal, but then I began to worry. (Bad idea!) From when he was six months old, he has had what they call benign macrocephaly and for those of you who took med-tech terminology in college it really translates into "no big deal big head". Of course I knew his head was big when he was born and it measured 15cm around....real cool, since we are graciously given 10cm in childbirth. So at 9 months (last summer) we had a full CT scan on his head and it was determined that it was really nothing, just a big head. I think it is charming, but I am partial.
But when he started stumbling all over the place, I was taken back to the place of thoughts I had when he had that scan and all the things that "could've" been wrong. I remember not spending much time there (I must have been reading some of Dr. Helmstetters books at the time). For whatever reason, last week, I was going down a terrible path.

I have a dear friend, who has gone through way more than CT scans with her child starting at age 3 months, brain surgerys, tests beyond belief and I often think of what she does to control her thoughts. This is her reality, it is true and real and fully present in their daily lives. When I was reading one of her blogs, she had gone through so many thoughts of What if this? What if that? And her wise mother told her..."So What?" How true that is? So what? Is it going to change anything? Will we love our children less? Will it turn us to the Lord in prayer more? Will it humble ourselves to trust that God is in control? Sounds like a way better thought process to me. That is why she has the song by Mercy Me, Bring the Rain on her blog.

Again, my point is that I need to brush up on my thoughts and after several good friends and family had told me, "He's probably growing." or "Maybe his allergies are bothering him and he has extra fluid in his ears throwing off his equilibrium" Uh, yeah, WAY better thoughts than mine of "What if they missed something?" No thanks, I'll be reading! Thank you God for good friends, for your word, for your thoughts that I desperately need to be mine.